Thursday, November 24, 2011


this is the easiest year so far...still miss mom, but not as hard this year as in the past few years. not sure why, maybe a change in home-location, maybe it is just distance-in-time. maybe it is that we have discussed plans for when we are a bit more settled and can invite the "strays" like we did with mom...we were invited to go to my dean's house, but we are staying home and having meatloaf tonight and being grateful that we are here and all seems to be going well in our world.

the semester is almost over (i can't believe it) and things are wrapping up and coming together, mostly as planned - i need to rearrange some things for next semester, but that is fine - first semester is the learning semester and then 2nd would be the refining semester - hope fully 3rd will be smoother (snile - tip'o the keyboard to mom).

hand has healed and the boy is fine - still, he wants to go outside and roll around and bully the other cats in the area...still some issues with range-of-motion with some of the more precise motions of my pinkie, but all seems to be well and progressing. typing is no longer painful, yay!

ankle is better, but not 100% - guess that happens as you get will improve, just as the hand is improving.

overall, i am happy and glad to be here/now. grateful to my sweety, without whom i think i would not have gotten this far and had as much fun; grateful for my mom, though she can no longer be with us for a meal; grateful for my mom, dad, sisters, brother, brother-in-laws, and sister(in-law) without whom i would not be the woman i am; grateful for all my friends, old and new, near and far, without whom i would not have survived to this point.

peace and love to all and safe journey through the day and your lives.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

...and then... hand is getting better - still not 100%, but maybe 98% - having problems closing into a fist without pain, but i think it is a matter if using it, not permanent damage.

anyways...there i was, minding my own business - putting the gas into the shed for the guy who has been cutting our grass (LOVE HIM!) and then heading up to feed the neighbor's cats (she is having surgery and is not home) - like i said, i was minding my own business when "WHAM" and "CRACK" i fell flat on my face when the outside of my right foot went down much further than the inside and i heard it crack... flat out and clawing the ground at 6am, dew still around and cold and in my work clothes...i am sure i cursed very loud and colorfully and then had to assess my foot and see if i could go and feed the cats and then head out to, that hurt. made it to the cats...not too bad...made it to school...OK...had a hard time driving home after standing on it for most of 8 hours... still not sure if i broke something, but it is better now than it was bruised and swelled up almost immediately, but i didn't take my shoe off, so it didn't have anywhere to go... one of my cohort told me that it is possible to break a "high" ankle bone (no clue, but he has more experience with anatomy than i do, so "whatever"). man, that was 5 days ago...still bruised and a bit sore.

fonda doesn't get how i just keep going...i am not sure how i keep going sometimes, but there is not much other options, so i do. if i don't work, i don't get paid. if i don't do it (whatever "it" may be), who will? no other options, i gotta do what i gotta do, and damn the pain that maybe along with it. so far, i have recovered fairly quickly and all has been well, so i will carry on with things the way the are going.

still looking for FT will come when i am ready, i guess. i am getting ready to apply to about 10 or so positions along the east coast and back into the mid-west (sigh)...i would LOVE to stay down here! but...i will go to where the jobs are for now and see what happens from there. i think fonda is a bit homesick - we need to make arrangements for us/her to go up and see her mom and daughter...i wish she would feel able to go without me...she has much more flexibility with her time than i do. i understand not wanting to make that drive alone and all that, but i also understand the missing the family bits...oh, well no forcing the issue (not that she won't comment on this later [smile]) (lvoe you babe!)

anyways, here i am limping along and now i need to get back to school work so i can be ready for the last few weeks of school...not to mention it has been five years since mom died...but that is for another post (maybe).

peace for now.

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